My choices shape my every day, in ways I don't always realize until later. Today I accept that I made some choices today that I am not completely pleased with, but they were my choices. I accept them, as part of who I was when I made them. In order to make more pleasing choices going forward, I will remind myself of why I feel it is important that I make different choices, but this does not mean I will demean or diminish myself as less than worthy, because that will accomplish nothing but more negativity.
The truth is that it is not just each tiny step, but the overall direction I move in that matters. Some days I might not care if I ate too much, or neglected a chore, but other times I let these things bother me a lot. The more important things, like staying positive and continuing to walk in love, are the decisions that determine whether I am following the right course or not.
Today, right now, I accept myself as perfectly me. I may not live up to the standards of others. I might not please all of the people, all of the time. I let anger and defensiveness go about that- that is all just fear: fear of losing love, or of not being good enough to keep love in my life. The good news is that love never fails, it endures all things, it is patient, it is kind. It believes all things, hopes all things. I forgive my imperfections and those of others, and I thank God for the goodness and grace that has been given to me.
Today, at this moment, I am enough. I am loving and loved. I am intelligent and brave. I am quirky and funny, I am able and determined, I am strong and wise.
I am daily making the choice to reach out for what I want. I am neither undeserving nor unworthy of life's blessings, and I believe that true success is not measured in dollars, but in relationships. Let me be a student of love before all else.
Skills and talents are blessings to be shared, not trophies to be hoarded, nor are they measures of our worth. I believe I have talents and skills that are helpful to others- the most important kind.
Today, a touch or a smile may truly encourage someone, or make their day. Let me be quick to help, and slow to criticize. At this minute, I choose to stop being jealous when I am not included in everything that everyone does. I choose to not compare myself to the 'greatness' of others. My greatness is not theirs, and theirs is not mine. I fear no lack, there is more than enough love, fun, and time for me. I choose to be happy for others when they seem to have something that I don't. After all, I am blessed beyond measure! Let me count the ways!
Where there seems to be a lack, I will ask, and more will be given, because all my needs are supplied. ( The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want) means that I am more than taken care of, I will not want or go without.
Sometimes, if I am wanting for the wrong reasons, the wrong things, I need to ask myself if there is a reason that I am not getting whatever it is. Do I really HAVE TO have a nice, new car, or do I just need to be able to get where I want to go, and not be vain about it? Yes, it is ok to have what we want, within reason. But we should not be like spoiled children, expecting all the best toys and goodies, simply needing to extend our hand and grab them. Perhaps there is a time and place for the new car, and a time and place for the car that simply runs.
Today I release all the pain of my past. From childhood abandonment, to feeling as though I inadvertently abandoned my own children....I cannot undo the actions of my past, I cannot change people's perception of me, no matter how hard I may try to explain. All I can do, is NOW, TODAY, reach out my hand and my heart, as many times as I can, to those I love...and move forward. I will pray to be forgiven, I will live in forgiveness.
Nobody in my adult life did any wrong to me that I was powerless to end.
I forgive myself for unwise choices, and draw a line in the sand.
I rise above, remembering that anyone can fall
and fall again.
I would love to say that after what I have learned, I won't make mistakes again.
Funny, that.
There is always a song in our hearts. If we listen, it will carry us, and move through us.
Love- gives rise to hope, and
Hope is the fuel of dreams,
imagination gives life to ideas,
and sparks become a flame.
Seek always to fan the flame!
Listen to the wind, feel the sunshine on your face. Hear the breeze whisper through the trees. Sometimes, put down the washload, the vacuum, and just go seize the moment.
If you want more fruit in the garden, tend well to what you already have- and THEN plant more seed!!!
Lighter Notes:
My Favorite Things:
Dreamy music
Long summer days, when it's too hot.
Cool summer nights, when it's not.
Days off
Laughing til I cry
hugs
when someone knows you well enough to see through your mask, and loves you anyway
When that same person knows just what you need after a really rough day.
People who don't laugh when you break down and cry about it
Kielly's smile
Katie's laugh
Ashlyn's music
Lindsay's joy
Bailey's Hugs
grandma's wisdom
Mom's Grit and sweetness combined
Afternoon thunderstorms
rainbows
kitties
cashmere!
Spumoni
Key lime pie
cheesecake
medium rare T-bone
a really good salad
fresh berries
Spearmint
River rocks
the sound of a river
the waves of the sea
the sound of the breeze through palm fronds
crystal clear water, shining in Carribbean blue hues
Cutting through crowds
dolphins at play
horses in all their running splendor
heroes
The Supernatural
Make-up
Singing to the top of my lungs
singing softly
reading aloud for others
being able to make people laugh!
Baking!
sweets ( I confess)
Specifically, chocolate, food of the gods.
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